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The last two weeks of my life have felt more like two months… maybe years if I really want to be dramatic. Yeah. Let’s go with years. That last two weeks have pretty much lasted FOREVER.
There we go. Moving on.

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“Why has it felt so long?”

Funny you should ask… Reader.
The last two weeks have been somewhat of a spiritual “funk” for me. Not necessarily bad… just not great. Still. Quiet. A little awkward honestly.
For starters, after moving into a new apartment (shout out to the folks for lending a LARGE helping hand) I was emotionally and physically exhausted.

I don’t know what it is about moving, transition, change, etc. that is so hard on me. I hate it. I hate going from comfortable routine, predictability, and familiarity to … not those things. I hate quickly and suddenly losing those things because I am forced realize that I crafted a small but very secure identity in those things. To lose them is to lose myself. I don’t like starting over from scratch. What then am I left with? I don’t like uprooting. To dig another set of roots takes time and well… I’m busy. Perhaps more truthfully, I make myself busy because I inwardly know that where my time, energy and focus goes is not where it should.
Change just doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel natural. It’s not fun.

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