I’m taking a break. Signing off.
Because I think I have a real problem; I think I might be slightly addicted.
To Facebook… and Twitter.
I truly never thought I would be the person that needed to “fast” from those things– those social media sites that are completely inanimate objects; lifeless potholes to meaningless information about utterly irrelevant things that primarily revolve around self.
But alas, here I am. Taking a large step back in order to reevaluate how I spend my time, my energy, my effort and trying to determine just where I derive my personal hope, self-worth, and intrinsic-value. As it stands now, I must admit that Twitter and Facebook have dominated most of these areas as of late.
While I am embarrassed to admit that I am not strong enough to limit myself and instead need complete and total separation from these things, I am overwhelmingly grateful for two things:
1. The awareness of the toxicity of these outlets. Not to say that they are inherently evil, but that they can be used and abused, manipulated and misconstrued to be bigger and better than they truly are
2. That my sweet friend Amye is doing this with me; because the reality is, I’m not strong enough to do this on my own. More importantly, I don’t want to do it on my own. Perhaps it’s my pride, but I don’t want to be the only one that really needs to do this. So thank you Amye.
So here’s the deal– Amye and I are fasting from Facebook (and Twitter too for me) for the month of June. No checking newsfeeds. No status updating. No “relationship status” stalking.
Why? Because I feel like I am going crazy. And as it turns, I don’t like that feeling.
So for all the time that I spend on Facebook and Twitter, I am going to spend it elsewhere. Memorizing scripture, reading books, playing outside, and hopefully writing more here.
My prayer for this next month is simple– God show me where my worth and value lie; show me how much more satisfying you are than a network of (let’s face it) mostly strangers that don’t see my heart the way You do. Break off chains of insecurities that have taken deep root where they don’t belong and replace them with the fruits of Your Spirit so that I stop speaking in acronyms (i.e. OMG) and start speaking in truth with grace.
June… you don’t scare me.